How'd it go? Are you ok? well, duh, yeah. I know it's not ok, but did you get through your appointment ok?

This has been a tough weekend. I remember not wanting to believe in my BP and I didn't EVEN want to hear about fibromyalgia. Both of them ticked me off. My doc just shook her head and said I needed to figure it out.

I think it's so hard to believe one can be bipolar because we all buy into the stigma attached to it. That we should have more control over ourselves. I know I did. (aw heck, I can't lie. I still believe I should be able to control my temper, depression, agression. I am still working on it.)

But I remember being so angry. And you do not know how many meds I dropped because of the side effects. You can only live with nausea, headaches, memory loss, seizures and so on for so long. Docs gotta listen too.

I hope she heard you today. I hope you get to try something that isn't so hard to take.