Yes, this place is full of cat-lovers!
It's been a long time since I've lost a pet. But I have three cats right now and I know losing any one of them would be devastating. They're my babies and I love them dearly. Just like children they each have their own personality and are different in their own ways but I love them all equally.
I'm so sorry you had to lose your kitty. I can only imagine how hard that was but you know in your heart you did the right thing....as hard as it was. Because that little cat depended on you and it was because of you that she didn't suffer needlessly.
One day you'll be ready for a new pet. Everyone is different....some people just need more time than others.