thank you alffe, I do know you care and so do others. I just wish there were a way for all of us to be neighbor and help each other out. Nobody does anything for free or just to help. People rally for a tragic tornado, or hurricane, but what of all the little storms people are surrounded by? I do feel like I am up inside some storm, and I am getting battered around viciously. This situation will have a resolution, one way or the other. I will take it to my senator this next week. I don't have the ink cartridge for the letters right now to copy. There is nine years of information to pass on to whomever might help. The lawyer who wrote the trust did not know anything about how the government agiencies work, therefor had no knowledge on how to protect me from that same government. He wanted the money from my mother and did not stop to consider and future occurances. All he could see at the time was a family gathered around my mothers death bed, all getting along just fine. That was until the trust information was released. I was relieved of being a human that raised my children when the money and homes was distrubted to my two adult children. Taking is all they know how to do and I cannot figure out what I did wrong in raising them. They were raised to be generous, kind and loving toward each other, and me. What happened? Where are they when I stumble and fall? What happened when I got older and needed them? We all get sick in life, nobody is exempt from that. Where are they when my tears are all that I have left? No we are stuck in some horrible family battle, all over money money money. Every body out for themselves. This is why a future seems so hopeless. Just where am I suppose to go? A project? I can't pay for utilities there eithor. I am sick to death of my whole situation alffe. I will go to the senators office, and keep trying for awhile, but I have refused now, all medical intervention. Most of the specialistsdo not take medicaid, so I can't afford now the 20% I need for my care. So I am going to stop all care and medicine until this issue is resolved. Why try to keep my health when I have no future anywhere? This is what I worked for and raised my kids for? 30 years of effort, and I am reduced to nothing but tears? This isn't worth it, to live under this kind of pain from my family, on top of all my medical issues. I appreciate the group hug, and I will be back when I hear something good. In the meantime, I hope you are all doing OK, and able to deal with the issues that your lives present. I am not the only to be going through he__. I care about all you too. ginnie