One of the things I've been really struggling with is that whenever I've been injured in the past there have been clear, positive things I can do to get better, such as physio exercises. PCS seems so much worse than my previous shattered kneecap (which hurt like hell and couldn't walk for months) partly because it seems like all you can do is sit around feeling sorry for yourself hoping it goes away. Any attempt to use positive actions or goal setting seems to make it worse not better.

So I've decided for my own sanity I need a more badass attitude.

I've realised part of the reason I've been so down is I've been been seeing the necessary steps for getting better too much as passive acts (NOT doing things rather than doing things).

From now on I am attacking my PCS by resting, nutrition etc it's not about what I'm not doing or am not able to do, it's about what I am doing, and every day I feel better is a victory.

I've also decided to be less 'understanding' of people who don't make an effort to understand what I'm going through. Sick of having to justify myself all the time, and of sitting around feeling sorry for myself and hoping others will feel sorry for me too.

Sure it's a confusing condition but I've felt awful and have been unable to function effectively in or out of work for over three months now. My life has totally changed and anyone who knows me should be able to see that. If you still think it's not that bad or that I'm making it all up well then ........ you

And as for my workplace's 'human resources' department if they want a fight they're gonna get one (whilst making sure I take appropriate amounts of rest and try not to get too stressed about things!). This human is more than just a 'resource' and they're gonna know about it.

I'm hoping this attitude is a stage of recovery lol it feels better than sitting around moaning anyway

GRRRR