I feel like crying, I am...
I just thought this today and felt very sad,,
It's been one month and although there is some lessening of symptoms,
I feel like I am more often a different me than "me"...

I had a good day today talking laughuing joking with my kids, shopping..
theni had a "funny turn" as we call them, I get very emotional, if it's emotional stuff we're talking abot and get very tearful, easily hirt...
Even when recounting stuff from years ago that was awful, it makes me cry; literally like a baby...no like a 7 yr old me...
I see the pain in my daughter's eyes as she tries to comfort me, it's like she now sees the switch and then she switches to become my comforter... She's so kind and gentle...(she's normally a teenage bitchy typcal)
She's coping, but she's hurt because i am hurt at my own "weakness"
I was a different person, sassy v. confident, now i feel pathetic a lot...
just like a child and I can't helpit.

It's sooooo weird, my life now. I am happy I have my family, I feel isolated from my friends I am aware i don't feel/sound lu=ike myself
I was witty, sexy fun life of the party type... Now i slur and mix up my words and forget what i am saying all the time... I can still amke jokes, just slower... Iam self-conscious about how I ound...
but it could be worse. i guess i sound shallow, i guess ia m
I feel better now, just after typing all that...