Hey, Kasey. I know exactly which shoulder shrug you're talking about. So irritating. So frustrating.

Don't ever apologize for a lengthy post. We all need those from time to time. I've written 3-4 as much as you did (don't think I said sorry either .)
Take what you need, give what you can.

Abbie's given you the PN forum link. Wander around there, ask questions, get to know the folks. You can also click on the Search link above (& little right of center), which will help find other forums where interests may be being disgusted.