Hey Donna....

I... I wish my heart could type this because sometimes my words are not enough to express my feelings... I love you way to much and truly appreciate your friendship and love... what I have received from all of you here is, is... cant even find a correct word.... it means a lot... and, you are like a family to me.

I just have been totally screwed these past days and... dont know... I thought I would bother you here because I always post the same stuff... I HATE LIFE. No matter if I take meds or not... I suddenly fall so deep again... and dont know... I hate to sound repetitive because I feel people get tired of my rants...

I feel empty all the time... well, most of times... in my mind, in my soul, in my heart... like... yeah, probably I havent put any cherry in my bowl ???

Anyway... I know this feeling will go away for a while, and then, will come back... and yeah... I just wish I could find a purpose for my life... I have failed in the attempt more than once and it hurts...

I try to help streets' animals... I study because I want to help in the health field... but still think my life is not worth at all...

Hell... Im so blue... my bones hurt... argh.

Sorry guys... Im in a very bad position right now