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Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: Vermont
Posts: 6,726
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Elder
Join Date: Jan 2008
Location: Vermont
Posts: 6,726
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My world is shrinking
My world is getting smaller and smaller, and I'm not even sure how I feel about that.
I get less and less far away from home, less and less frequently. I accept virtually no invitations. I add more and more places to my list of "I'll never go there again". I talk on the phone less, and with fewer people. I'm a reluctant hostess. VERY reluctant.
Maybe it would be good for me to stretch my horizons a little, deliberately try to stop or at least shift the shrinkage. Maybe. But I don't really want to. As I've said before: I WANT to want to, but I don't really have the energy, mental or physical.
Am I a little depressed? Well, duh. But I don't think it's primarily depression that's causing me to watch my world get smaller. It's all just too tiring, too overwhelming, too confusing.
Wah wah wah.
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**My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Psalm 73:26)
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