I told DH I wished I could cut this house in half. We dont use half of it, and yet it needs to be cleaned. Im rarely the girl to answer the phone, and its not because its not usually for me, its because I really dont care what they want. Its a hard attitude for long standing friends to swallow when you have an "i dont care" day. I dont want to go lay in the sun at the beach. I dont want to roast in the heat for a picnic. I dont want to fight traffic to go to the mall an hour away in one direction. I dont want to go sit still on a church bench and pretend that I can read the hymnal. so, I have started to make myself happy right here. I rarely drive and only attempt if i am having a great day, and then its only to town. no going past this podunk place.

Told DH I wished we lived in the city, and I could take the little bus that goes around town and drops off the seniors and college students without cars at Walmart, Target and other places without having to bug him to take me when we need groceries. Now I take him in with me, and need his help to read labels or life things. I get overwhelmed in the store from the lights, the perfume, the people. Went out to pizza last week with friends, and my friend wore so much perfume that I was just overwhelmed by it the whole way. ICK!

You are not alone B2Y. you are not alone.