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Originally Posted by Mari
I don't think we are supposed to hold on to (maybe nurture?) the idea of darkness inside.
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i think if we take a dualistic moment here, we all have "light" and "dark" inside. how we use them is a different kettle of fish. for me the black rock was a sort of Darth Vader mode. often used when there was much anger (as with Vader), but it is encapsulated in the rock, inside. it is not exposed. but it is forceful and capable of withstanding almost anything. my last job, for some reason, i was not able to use this... i tried... maybe as you say, Mari... i was unpracticed at it because i had not used such a technique in 7 years.
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Maybe that is analogous to my listening to head banging rock when I was in horrible mixed states. I needed to find something to match my mood.
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Yep. but at work, while programming. audio shield and Vader reinforcer.
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Perhaps visualizations / mantras and so on, work best when we plan and then practice them while we are in a good state.
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yes, John who posted the various CBT tools also stated this.
interesting.
well, black works for me in that way and more when i'm seriously messed up on the down or mixed/side. a lot of what this was about - using these visualizations, was hiding from ppl what was really going on, being able to control myself "just enough," and being able to do it for 8-10 hours in a very stressful job where i was pulled from all sides phone ringing and is it ready yet. Black Sabbath i always found to be good integrative therapy. Beat the sh** out of those drums and gimme some good low basslines.
On the light side, i like Alex De Grassi and a couple other new age artists.
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Tdoc uses white for protection. I'm still getting used to that. I might pick a different color if I were working on my own -- like blue.
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See, i would definitely pick black even just for protection. Blue is useful for other things. i sometimes wear all dark blue - interestingly - when i don't feel like standing out. Black or blue are ok for that, but blue is more muted....... it is a staple for pure but not disabling or mixed depression, on weak (not week, well that too) days, when i needed to draw as little attention as possible.
i think we each have to pick what feels right... what matches us and when. i don't think one color fits all ....
