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Originally Posted by BlueMajo
The worst part was that at the end, my boss told me that I have to be more "zen" and dont show symptoms of desesperation...  Ok, seriously, I was not desperated at all, but I felt I had to defend my work, my project... I have been investing my time, my life in this crap for the last 2 years of my life plus the research I did before and I have to just close my mouth and accept all their attacks ?? Sorry, Im not Jesus...
She admitted they were rude and stuff but she didnt like my position either it seems...  |
you sound more frustrated and exasperated with everything (and with good reason) than desperate. her perception was off but... she still managed to see that you were distressed even though she did not characterize this distress correctly (maybe i didn't either, but no matter). and perceptions aren't reality.
Admitting the audience was rude etc is a big deal. She did not attack you. i feel her advice
was supportive even if you don't buy into that stuff. wrong or right, she suggested something that she
thought would help you cope better in future.
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In resume, I feel abandoned, like nobody is rooting for me or supporting me or my findings...
I hate this place... I was about to scream "There are children out there dying of cancer and you want me to waste 3 years characterizing this stupid **** ?? who cares what is it and how is it ?? If we can help people with this, forget about the molecular aspect of this crap" Argh...
Science you son of a b*** and your pathetic sons...
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the law is similar. trials and such. but the right for a fair trial is to try to ensure, as much as possible, that good people are kept out of jail and bad people go in. at least that is the principle.
science and medicine is the same. empirical data is fine but where it fails, "designing" a drug via molecular studies doesn't seem like such a weird idea. and yes, it means characterizing those "other" receptors at molecular level of course... you probably even said this and those students probably didn't "get it"... to figure out what possible molecules or radicals for which they might have highest affinity.
i may be saying this in worse terms than those students and if i am offending you by saying more of their crap, i do apologize.
but what came to mind was a subclass (i'd have to look up the name, i've forgotten
) of neuroleptics, where it was noted that those with shorter carbon chains connecting a particular radical were significantly more effective.... properties of this nature, for instance, be useful too on your "unresponsive receptors" but do require studies at molecular level.
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Sorry friends, Im just... blah.
*speechless*
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i am really sorry the experience was so negative for you. it took a lot of energy and you sound sort of deflated. unappreciated. i appreciate you. even if what some of what the students kepts saying was true
-- it was not useful if already part of your pres and
-- it was apparently done in a rude way
they hit a huge nerve, since this presentation is about your whole life investment and future really.
so in the end what you went through is akin to stage performance with the audience throwing rotten melons at you. pretty stinky.
i am very very sorry about how things went.
i hope the next one is much, much better.
sending big hugs
~ waves ~