I am sorry you are feeling like that Blue Majo. I can understand how bad it feels when you have feelings of abandonment with regard to the career and people who you think should be supporting you, just not even paying any attention, to the important thing, the research, well I dunno. I don't know what to think. Hope you feel better soon. I know I don't get on as much as I used to be able to, but I had to comment. Hang in there Blue....