my trip has been cancelled. total no-go. i can't go into the stupid gory details.

the good news is i no longer seem to be manic... nor even hypomanic at all. my parents attest to a net difference too. my mom feels i would not have accepted the conditions of this trip had i been right in the head to start with. she added that recently i could not be reasoned with at all as i would fly off the handle at the slightest thing, in particular any counsel i found contrary...

i guess it is for the best in the end. i have been sleeping SOOOO much and it has felt so good. i honestly feel much better and also perhaps more relieved than anything else, all things considered.

i still have my 2 weeks off work.

~ waves ~