"dirty word" I figured it out!!!!

I figured out one reason, probably the top reason I am having SUCH a hard time with this.

I always expected to inherit the house. My parents have two homes, one in Scottsdale, AZ and the island home. I have 1 sister and she was due to inherit the house in Scottsdale and I was going to inherit the island. Dad said one of the reasons they were selling was it costs 12,000 per year before even opening a door, that's the taxes, insurance and maintenance of the home. He said I could never afford to pay that.

WHY? Why can't I afford it? BECAUSE I HAVE M.S.!!!

It's another thing MS has taken away from me. HAD I not been diagnosed with MS I would be a working professional and have the money to maybe say "you want to sell? Ok I'll buy it off you".

I always, since I was a pre-teen boy thought my grandkid's would grow up fishing off the dock at that house. Another dream crushed.

I know, I know, I'm just a 42 year old nut case!

I'll get over it, one day.