Lady,
I'm on that new med. It has helped somewhat, but I notice myself getting angry-REALLY angry, more often lately. Due, in part to feeling powerless over situations in life, and voiceless also.
When I saw my pcp last time, she told me in no uncertain terms that if I didn't back off the situations with my ailing in laws, it "would take me down"...I have backed off, but I can't totally avoid the responsibilities I have with that. What makes me feel powerless is the fact that I felt they should be moved to assisted living, where they would have someone on call 24/7. My DH & his sis thought the place charged too much for what care is offered, and my MIL would be upset about the small amount of closet space.
So now I worry that if one goes into the hospital, the other will have to go into a nursing home, because they can't be alone. It is on my mind, and I'm angry that I didn't have a voice in this.
Added to this, the unpredictability of how my Sxs will affect my day weighs on me daily. I am so bad at prioritizing my energy output, that I often soy later in the day. I get overwhelmed and angry, and yes I do boo-hoo when I need the release. I never ask "why me?" none of us is immune to the slings and arrows of life. But I think the cognitive changes make it more challenging to deal with it all.
When I was in the ER last month, they gave me Atavan to calm down my breathing and heart rate...I felt so much calmer! But my docs won't prescribe any narcotics, afraid I'll become addicted. So I cope however I can...
Thanks to all fir the thoughts advice & support...