allen....you are awesome...as i have stated before your words have helped me in so many ways that i can not count...i also am falling into the deep hole of rsd depression and all it has taken from me...very hard not to feel like you are not trying enough..but when you do try...the pain reminds you why you can't do all of what you want to...i sit on the couch and blink my eyes (like jennie) but unfort. things don't put themselves where they belong....fun trying though...who knows??? maybe one day it will work and i'll share the secret....stay strong...have a peaceful night..linda