I'm so sorry Dej. Sometimes I feel as though eventually I'll just fade away into oblivion as this miserable disease continues to take away more and more of my life. Being divorced after 24 years of marriage and three kids -- now six grands -- inheriting a substantial amount when my father passed 12 years ago, I was finally in a position to enjoy "retirement". Bought a beautiful townhome, a brand new sporty/luxurious car and was looking forward to traveling and spending quality time with the grands. But no...............this horrible companion had to advance, first of all taking away my ability to walk, then unable to drive and sold my dream car. Rarely see my "kids" or the grands....you know when you can't do the normal things it's easy to be left behind. Now I only use about half of my house, can't get out in the back yard patio, flower garden, etc., have severe nerve pain 24/7, haven't been to a store in almost three years because it's so hard getting my spastic/stiff legs into a car and most people don't want to bother. Now I don't even want to go anywhere. Yes, I understand your situation completely. It's even taken away our dreams. I'm so sorry...