Hi Bizi,
It is late here so Ill just mention a few tools for you .

It is very average to be disopointed with outside business.

The firm is outerenviroment and we cant control it.

Racing thoughts and other feelings are distressing but not dangerous

The firm is being their own average not right or wrong

Excuse rather than accuse for your own mental health.

your mental health is more important than anything else.

be the patient patient .

Endorse for all efforts of using the tools

Sometimes you can use just one tool and it will work for you.

Do it all the time myself.

Best
john
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