i noticed i felt weird landing... there was not the rise of positively charged nostalgia there was when, as i child i would go back home (a different place, btw - not here). and i would get that same feeling when i settled in the US, and would fly back there. nothing.

but boy did i high-tail it out of that airport, and once here.... ahhh... relief.

and then... well... home is where you hang your hat i guess, and at the moment mine is hanging here. andddd so are my folks. i hugged them both really hard, a lot.

had an intense intense (beautiful) conversation with the other of my two travelling companions last night that earned me 2 hours of sleep. it had got to where both of us thought we'd not get ANY 1 on 1 time, and we were both happy to be able to reconnect. indeed, i now regret the 2 hours of sleep and would have gladly spent them hanging together for all the alertness they earned me (close to nil). we actually entertained the thought of going to the beach and watching the sunrise. i hadn't touched the water, which is a ritual of mine whenever i go to coastal areas either... and would have wanted too. and sunrise over the sea, hanging with renewed friend, would have been a great way to go end the trip. unfortunately the beach was not close per my capabilities, and i don't think my feet/legs would have made the distance very well... i regret now not having taken the chance. but... at least we did get to talk a good bit.

at home i started tlaking about stuff and was getting derailed, badly..... then i crashed after dinner and woke up with thoughts racing. i think it is ok - as in transient effect of sleep deprivation. if i kept up the deprivation i'd get manic but believe me i intend to sleeeeeep!!!

i think i have a pdoc a point ment tomorrow but i can't remember for sure, i have to text him first. anyway. just checking in.

~ waves ~ mostly just checking in ... will resume the sleep thing soon.