You're sounding good, Eric. You know that you'll think of your mom every day forever (or until you meet up again!) because she's your mom.! Take good care of you amid all the busy-ness.
You do know, I bet, that occasionally a 'moment' will ambush you out of nowhere. After 18 yrs., it happens. But now they tend to turn quickly into a memory sweetened by time. I'm seeing "the other side" of some of the worst, & I am finally realizing that I did the best I could at the time.
Take good care.

C.G.. *. **. **a work still being worked on