Thinking of you BF. You can get through this.
Remember all the other times you were feeling like this and you got through it? I remember some of them. I do!
You know you can do it no matter how scary it feels right now. Hang on there.
Call a friend to help you out there at home if that's possible just to keep you company until you're feeling stronger. If that's not possible then keep posting here.
Please do talk to your doctor or a trusted person about how you're feeling.