I told my manager to fire me yesterday and he refused. sigh

My boss and I got into a fight over training his new secretary. I don't think she's had enough time to have all of the basics of the job under her belt and I don't think it's fair that he has such unreasonable expectations of her.

So he had my manager tell me to just let her drown and it ****** me off. BAD.

Gave myself a migraine. I am going to dope up on Valum for the next couple of days and just live with being high. I can't go on like this. I really can't keep letting this all get to me. I am burnt out and I know it. I just don't know what to do about it.

Wes's gallbladder appears to be acting up but it might just be an ulcer. So ten million tests and more stress.

Plus I am going to the attorney tonight to see if I am in violation of my divorce decree if I let Wes stay away from his dad. Long story short, dad kicked Wes out again and Wes told his dad that he is no longer his father.

sigh.

So, I go in to see if I need to modify my divorce decree or get the courts to appoint Wes a gardian. Some one impartial to protect him from his abusive father.

PTSD is through the roof over that one. How dare the ex treat OUR child like he used to treat me? *** (explitive defining donkey) hat.

Not depressed, not dissappointed. Just ANGRY. And sick. grrrrrr.