I just thought I was past the stage of allowing my feelings to get hurt by others. and YES it must be given permission to be allowed in the door. I think several factors are at play.

1. I am grieving for the loss of my hobby
2. I am over tired from having DS here
3. I am frustrated and not yet at peace with the loss of my eyes
4. I always knew folks are ME ME ME centered, but I was surprised at how many elderly and professionals talk OVER me.
5. I know the "but you look so good" thing is at play here.If you look good, you must feel good, no?
6. its ME that needs to make peace with this, not them, and their sympathy, or kind words wont change where I stand on my path. its me that must walk it, they have their own hill to climb.
7. I cant expect folks to mirror my actions, for then they wouldnt be mine, it would just be common practice
8. I need to count my blessings, not my failings.
9. I need to get over myself. I provided a service for these folks. I am not from their town, their circle, their social standing, or their emotional circle. I AM and outsider who was helpful, nothing more. no matter what I do I wont change that.
10. I need to know that only folks who have lived what I live can understand. There are those in this circle who have no idea what its like to be more blind than sighted from optic nerve damage, anymore than I know what its like to be incontinent, or the limits of the wheel chair. So, MS is like a fingerprint. This is mine, and I need to claim it.

Thanks for the pep talks, both public and private. I really did have a moment on my hands, no?