Zen.......I didn't even know that living in the moment was Zen, duh on me.

I am just trying my hardest to do that, or else I will blow a gasket.

Too much has transpired and I got myself tangled in a web of obessing over it and getting ****** off. NO MORE....I am done.

Still no call from the PO.....a week now since he cancelled for the 3rd time with no follow up phone call. Well I will be damned if I call him, it will only upset me, so I say screw it.

Living life in the moment is all I can do now. I am sick of stress and worrying and my ex and his PO.

So all in all - I'm dealing with things as they come. Now is my time to call the shots.

Hugs, Nikko