Well, now, you got me with this because it takes me back to my hospital time two yrs ago. I was out of sick & personal time AWA accrued vacation leave. If I wasn't back at work on Monday they could drop my contract. (If I went back on Monday they would still drop my contract--but because I had freaked out .... or acted out .... or otherwise made the evening news....)

Different situation, but I think I was having a lot of the same sorts of feelings. I kept trying to jump over today to try to figure what they were going to do tomorrow. I felt that I had to figure all the variables & to do X to produce their Z. It all worked out finally to my benefit, but I don't know how.

So I'm sending all the strong, positive good-for-you vibes I can get together--sort of a Good-Energy-O'Gram--& sending it your way, ~ waves ~ , along with the observation that you seem to have slowed down your thinking process, perhaps by writing things out so clearly in your posts. I don't know. But you seem to be making better decisions beginning with not going back to work last Monday.