I have not gone away, but continue to lurk a bit. I know about depression too, as I have not posted in awhile. I am loosing my home and facing throat cancer now. They want to try to "hold" it off. wonderful... You list of proceedures is long, and mine is getting to be. I wish all this would go away for all the people on this site. There is alot of suffering. I never forget the people I have met here eithor. I have just been too depressed to join in. I do have a glimmer of hope, that my state Rep. will step in to help me, so I don't loose my home. Pain comes in many forms does it not? Take care leesa, I wish there was something I could do but pray. ginnie