Did you know that you have the right to do this medication free? There are other ways of doing this thing without the crap medication - i have been doing it for years now. For me, i ended up with tardive dyskenesia, tardive dystonia, pre-diabetes, and likely tardive dimensia - and i will tell you after that when you tell a psych that your not going to do the freakin meds they don't argue with you. i had no other choice.

maybe you higher power is giving you a direction to go in. As far as i see it, all the Bipolars are crazy with or without meds. You can do this thing medication free - just wish i had realized that before Risperdal. : (

What a tragedy.