He's about completely moved in with his girlfriend. She bought a house last year - he helped renovate it - so I guess he feels like part of it is his. He still has some of his bedroom furniture here but for the most part he lives with her. It's been almost a week since I've seen him.

Maybe I cover up and minimize how much I struggle physically. I really don't want either of my boys to worry and fret over me. They've had enough to deal with in life that's not their fault. I don't want to be a burden in their lives. I want them to live their life and enjoy it. But, on the other hand, I want them to worry about me - at least a little. Older DS does....sometimes too much....but younger DS seems oblivious to it. I hate being so wishy-washy. I need to stop thinking about myself so much and just realize that my boys are adults and have the right to live their life the way they want to. Oldest DS does not strain my "worry muscle" like youngest DS does. He's very mature for his age. He's promised to speak to him about this. I even told him to use the "Mom guilt" card if he has to!

This too shall pass................