thank you Bizi and Mari.

i slept again tonight, some, but am still restless and tired simultaneously. i had weird dreams and suppressed them immediately... could not deal.

Mari i love the belly dancer, thank you.

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unfortunately today's outlook isn't much better.

mom up at 7. then dad up at 9 - mom left but he is cooking. he is very linear about cooking, and in any case this is a dish which requires a long process. so my guess is he probably won't be done or will only barely be done, by the time mom returns. ERGO, no privacy window.

it's a wash perhaps because i don't know if i could do it anyway. i have had a REALLY REALLY bad time of things the past few days (d/t emotional whammy) and i am so sensitive to stimuli i am keeping earplugs in. i watched a half hour of stupiTV last night, with phones over earplugs to really block out the rest. i don't know if i could do loud music.

i am so restless. i feel like my spirit is crawling around in my body trying to get out.

~ waves ~