For months I was having frequent infections that would not go away (until now) and that is what my neurologist believes caused my CRPS,which effects all of my lower body.

I also told her about how stupid and young I am (only 20) and recently went to a rave where I did ecstasy for the second time.

Could my irresponsibility in that regard cause this horrible disease? My doctor said we got it very early (only had this for a month tops more likely less) and that we can possibly reverse it into remission, but the more research I do the more scared I am.

I'm really depressed and have no idea how I am going to function in regular life again. I have a new boyfriend I have been avoiding because it's too painful to even sit around and talk with him let alone imagining if he wanted to have sex with me.

I'm just so lost and destroyed as a human being right now. I just need my life back again.