Oh Jacquie I hope that you can find a network of uplifting safety net of arms and caring folks to help sort and ease the pain.....sometimes it is just a need to let it all out and not analyse it.
I know one thing that may of helped others but not me, compassionate friends. Some swear by them, but my heart just tore up hearing the sadness.

THe analyst need to stop being so analitical and try being a soul healer. Plus find a pill that gives us powergirl special strength.
Bareing the soul to lessen the load.