I second what Mark said. Just do teh best you can every day and don't worry so much. If you love this person then make it work no matter how messed up you are or how hard it is. People can be very forgiving if you are open and explain what is going on. You also have to let them be there for you. sometimes that's the hardest part but it's life. Life is not easy but it's so special. When you get married (if you choose to) you stay in it through thick and thin and if you go through tough times, they make you stronger. It's supposed to be that way. There will be hard times.