thanks Lee,
my pain is constant, and being very aware of what could happen, is just another reason not to p/u. i do believe in my physical being that mentally we are blessed to use the tools we need to apply. having a nuclear stress test i sadly learned i had a silent heart attack. if anything i am aware of my body. to learn of the attack just confirms how a person should always ALWAYS have an advocate. IT MOST CERTAINLY IS NOT IN MY HEAD.

thank you, eva