I am overwhelmed today. Hiding out in my office, crying, wanting to scream and throw things like a child. I would take myself to the ER (it is only about 10 steps away from my office) if they could do anything for me. It is raining and chilly here in TN and I am wondering if that is making me feel worse. Or if it is my mood. It has been a year since the end of my 4 your relationship which is also difficult. I am behind at everything and struggling today. I go for 30 shots tomorrow and will then be in to work. They don't understand. Some of my points are on fire, throbbing like crazy today. Others feel like knives. Unfortunately I am not helping because it is all I can think about. I have taken my medication and it is not helping. I miss the times when there were more good days than bad. And less stress. Everytime I make strides or try to be hopeful, I feel like the world knocks me back down.
Thank you for reading. Most importantly, thank you for understanding.
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