I too remember being so desperate for relief that I mentally pictured myself hacking off my legs with an axe ....... also I asked my Dr about getting the sympathectomy to permanently sever the nerve bundle that led to my legs from the lower spine.

It certainly does become a stark reality for one who's pain level is that high - constantly. It's the most helpless feeling in the world, aside from contemplating ending it all (I was there too)

Something HAS to give! It just has too, Abbie.