If any one had any idea how many times I have tried to get my self to do exactly this. There is no doubt in my mind that the nut house is the only place that I should have been since my head got wacked. I just can not handle the idea of being locked in with a bunch of other people or i would do it right now also. I think I could only do it if they sined some thing legal that said that they would have to keep me drugged in oblivion the entire time.