310Girl...I've been sort of where you are...in some ways. I know, all too well, that sense of desperation and it's awful. Depression is a horrible, indescribable thing and it robs us of so much...regardless of what causes it. And, in your case; when it's the result of a disease..I think it makes it so hard to understand and deal with.

Please don't do anything to hurt yourself. I don't know you at all, but it would hurt me a lot if you made that choice. I have a disease, too, and I know that I will die naturally. When I've been depressed I've thought of "hurrying it along"...but I don't think I'll do it; I'm just so frustrated by the uncertainty of tomorrow that I get afraid and, like you, I'm not sure I want to go through some of those things. But I can do it and you can, too.

Please keep hanging in there, girl...we can do it! (((hugs)))