A good point was brought up. HOLD ON! You don't know what tommorrow will bring. I know with my crps I have good days and bad and recently it seems to be a lot of bad with the rainy weather.
We are all here for you and each other and you did a wonderful thing reaching out. Many of us have sat and cried, wishing for death or amputation. (me included) but we all keep hanging on.
I know for me GOD has a plan to use me and my disease. Either to support others like me, to educate, or whatever it will be.
There are many of us here for you so remeber HOLD ON!