aftermath

This post is a bit out of character for me, and I guess that is what concerns me. I think I am having personality changes. This might be the PD itself, but it is more likely to be the meds (narcotics) that I am on for the pain. And frankly, I do not like the new "me."

Ron, you are such an inspiratiooon to me. You had bad dyskinesia at least 5 years before I started the experience, and you are handling it well. Margaret is such a supportive wife.

It's just that I am rarely feeling "good" any more. I will have a little talk with myself - the "pseudo-self" that is resulting from all of this mess. Hey! There's a new one "pseudo-self." Wouldn't Freud be proud of me? lol

Thank you to everyone who has responded in this thread. You know, I attended a retirement dinner in Washington, DC last week for a dear Parky friend. His wife passed away a few years back from PD complications. I recall calling him on the day of her passing to express my condolences. He said, "It's not a big deall - I lost my wife a long time ago." I interpret that to mean that she wasn't herself - she was "out of character." And I don't want that.

But why worry? In many ways it's good that such decisions are out of our hands - not ours to make... Worrying about something for which you have no control is a wastful use of time. And time isi all we've goot. So I will start right now trying to spend my time more wisely. Like - what am I going to fix for supper tonight? lol

Thanks friends. I needed a little boost, and I got it.
Peg