Darkside, how are you getting on? Please let us know how things are going.
I understand to a degree what your going through, as my Hubby was alcohol dependent and had been for years. He was lucky, as he had me to help him through.
Your Hubby may not be supporting you, but always remember there is support here!
Think about how proud you will be of YOURSELF, doing this by yourself!
I'm proud of you and I don't even know you!

My Hubby has been abstinent just over 14 mths now

Take good care
Buttercup x