I applaud your courage to come forward! I, too, am a recovering addict and suffer from depression. I was able to get clean 7 years ago next month, but it has taken me much longer to get my depression under control.
Secret Grace, I can tell by what you've written that you are a strong person and are struggling to be happy again. You have taken the first of many difficult steps and I am so proud of you! Everyone in this support group is here to support you in your journey and love you no matter what!