Waves Please stay. I love you a lot. I am sorry what your parents say. My parents do that too. But we all love you and you inspire us here. You have pulled me out of some slumps through your postings and PM's. You have been a big supporter. It hurts to hear you feel like this because I care about you. I see so much life through you. Hugs and comfort come your way. I will pray for you.
Sharla
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Originally Posted by waves
i don't how to go on any more.
i have a deathwish. i already feel dead inside.
i don't believe i would act on it because i'm afraid of success and failure:
--success because it would hurt my parents too much.
--failure because i could end up in worse conditions, with same deathwish.
i feel guilty for the deathwish. i believe in life but i can't seem to wrap myself around it any more.
objectively, i know i have so much more "going for me" than many do, despite the obstacles. but i can't seem to make any use of it.
i thought i knew how to walk around the proverbial pit, but here i am in it again.
thanks for listening anybody.
waves
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