Nightnurse, I can relate. I don't know if the hardest thing was not being able to perform at work or the dicision to bite the bullet and stay home. I have to admit it is easier in the sence that the stress is gone but there are other stressors each day dealing with our disability. It's not fun.

So many folks tell you how good you look and others see the outward signs. Life now is so flat, now I'm glad to be here, don't get me wrong. All of us lost things people cannot see, even our family and friends can't see what we've lost..

Most of us want to know one thing; what's wrong. There doesn't seem to be a lot of answers unfortuately.

Insurance is my biggest stressor now. I don't want to do anything that's a blatent infarction, not that I can, but If I fall, get sick, my world spins if I try to do some little task, give me credit for trying.

I'm even paranoid about posting. Don't take into consideration about typo's, word searching, transposions, etc.....

Good luck to you,
Mike