Hi and welcome! I know exactly what you mean about the pain defining you to others. It can be a sad and scary thing. I really hope that your trial goes well for you and you experience significant relief!! I also hope that the next 18 days go by quickly, it can be very hard to wait, I know. I just finished up my trial today so if there are any questions that I can answer for you, the experience is very fresh in my mind But there are also a lot of people here with a lot more knowledge than myself, and they are excellent resources- so you have come to the right place!!