I totally understand your feelings. I work fulltime also and some days I fight the tears all day long. I hate feeling like I must hide my feelings and pain from work and family. My husband is the only one who I can talk to and listens so well. I have seen tears in his eyes too. Not sure why this has happened to any of us. I try to live day by day, but it is hard not to think of the future. The Cymbalta has helped the pain in my legs this past week, but you just never know what the next day brings. I also feel there will better days and that gets me through. I hug my kids and love them so much. I hope your pain begins to lower and it is just a flare. Let us know how you are doing!