Jill, I know what you must be feeling at this time. I myself, have 3 children and was widowed for several years. When they each married, a whole new world opened up for me, then grandchildren. How wonderful life could once again be for me; especially where babysitting was concerned. I have spine issues, along with pehiphereal neuropathy which can be a "downer" at times.
Your life my seem bleek. I pray you will be able to cope with all you are going thru at this time and can look to the future. Once again, your children will need you even more. Wishing you a beautiful future.