First off, I'd say that you are describing an acute mental health problem that needs to be addressed urgently. If you haven't found the right treatment yet, that doesn't mean you can't or won't--it just feels that way. Taking the iniative to advocate for yourself by posting this thread is a big step in the right direction.

You're describing a slight improvement of quality of life when you're over seas, but it doesn't sound like you're mental health is going to be addressed over there, so that's a problem...for you medically and potentially for your ability to continue receiving SSD.

Have you considered moving to Hawaii? There is section 8 housing available and by using your Medicare benefits you could address your bipolar disorder. It's a shorter and less expensive flight to the Phillipines, so that you could still vacation there.