I am exhausted but home and glad to be. On Friday I went out and sat on the small deck that gave a very small glimpse of the ocean but showed the beautiful sunny sky, heard the surf. I sat there and cried. There was so many negative emotions going on, sad, mad, frustrated, dissapointed, hurt. My body had failed me. When I was able to be out on the beach it was good but getting out to the beach was terrible. Since we had a picnic on the beach on Wednesday I was able to stay out there all day. But Thursday we went up to the beach house to eat so that meant climbing that sand dune 4 times, 2 times each time out. Thursday evening I felt really bad. My hips hurt almost like they did when I got there Sunday night. My son in law wanted to get a picture of all of us on the beach. He wanted us all in white shirts or blouses. He procrastinates like I do so he did it Friday. I couldn't get out there. It really was kind of good that the picture of just his wife and kids only. My husband decided to be a horses butt on Thursday and stay in his housecoat and play Wii all day Thursday. I couldn't hardly do anything to help my daughter in the kitchen the wole time we were there. So eventually all those bad feelings will go sway and I will remember just the good times. I have some good pictures and that will help.

OK, I'm done venting. Thanks, I'm glad this group has a big shoulder.