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Originally Posted by acemagoo
Thank you for your response. Sadly it looks like I am in for a ride. I have taken many different drugs with no help for the depression (many caused problems, not make it better). They do seem to have found drugs that help the mania and psychotic features. In the US life itself is a trigger for suicidal ideation. In the Philippines the only trigger seems to be the thought of loosing my SSDI, then having to come back to the USA, ending up homeless again, back into and out of hospitals because homelessness is just to traumatic for me to handle and fighting for my SSDI benefits.
I do have a pdoc and tdoc here in the USA and the pdoc does try to change my meds, but the depression is drug resistant. I can still get the same drugs in the Philippines and see a psychiatrist there. Everything legal is in English there as is most signage, consumer goods, etc. Their doctors are very versed in English so that is not a problem.
I am washed up in my career because I have been out for so long and I am really unable to do anything else as I have limited and specific education (COBOL programming from a tech school and 2.5 credits from high school). I did love my job but this has brought me to my knees. Trying to do other jobs has ended in rather quick failure, I just can’t take it at some point and rather than going into a rage or loosing it I just walk off.
The worse thing about going to the Philippines is the possibility of having to come back to the US. The worse thing about staying in the US is fighting the losing emotional battle, taking the Philippines off the table just makes me want to give up. It is actually the only thing I am holding onto right now.
Damned if I do, damned if I don’t.
Sorry for the long post, got a lot on my mind.
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Please read this thread regarding CDRs:
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread157557.html
Having researched the matter myself, you have a right to live wherever you want, you don't have to justify the move to SS, do not suggest it will improve your mental health to move--you aren't functional and the move alone won't make you so, the only thing you have to do is to notify them of the actual move.
If you simply just love the Philippines, that's fine. If your income does not allow you to get the care you need in the state you live in, then please realize every state has different resources available. In Cali, for example, you would qualify for Medicaid and would (very likely qualify) to be able to have someone come in to clean your house, run your errands, and even provide companionship.
So long as you continue to receive regular care, that will show compliance when you receive your CDR. I would suggest you need weekly therapy due to your acute need...but just follow your doc's advise.
I have read that SS will be more proactive about investigating fraud for those that move abroad, but you don't intend to work at all, so I wouldn't stress over it. You're not doing anything wrong, and you deserve the best quality of life available.
Feel free to PM me if you need anything. If you would like to find a disability advocate, send me your city and state and I'll try to research one for you.