I'm finally laying in bed but all I can do is cry my eyeballs out. I'm hurting really bad and I can't get stinkin comfortable. Tonight was my oldest son's first marching band performance of the season and I was so excited to go. Pain and all I wasn't about to miss it. So we packed ourselves into the car and drove the 20minutes to see him. First of all the school that they were perfoming at I have been to many times and I remembered that there were a lot of stairs, I mean A LOT of stairs and lately my left leg's been acting up so I decided that we should park closer to the backend where there weren't too many inclines and stairs. We finally get there and I gotta applaud my momma and my baby because they waited so patiently for me and my husband who was haping me walk ever so slowly. We are on bleachers facing their football field when I notice some seats with backrests and figured that was the place to go since those stairs looked hella scarry. Anyway, I start to put our stuff down, (I packed a cushion for my lil butt to sit on and a warm soft blanket to keep those crazy hawaiian winds away from my fragile skin) when this older japanese lady comes over to me and starts matter-of-factly tells me that those seats I was about to get comfy in were only for VIP and Handicap people. Then she turns to a security guard to tell her to kick me out. I was thinking to myself dang you lady I AM A VIP HANDICAP, IT TOOK ME 45 MINS JUST TO GET HERE AND NOW I'M STINKIN WINDED! but I didn't say it out loud, and so she comes back to stand there and watch me leave. So not wanting to cause a scene I got my family up and politely asked where would I sit if I couldn't walk very well and the stairs would hurt me more. This stupid lady looks at me and says in a condesending sarcastic voice "I don't know, you're young you should be able to go down the stairs" turns around and walks away. I was like OMG! Who the bleep bleep are you to regulate anyway lady (yeah this is all done in my head, as my momma raised me to respect my elders) I was sooooo furiuos! I shoula just stayed there but I decided to go somewhere closer to the exit..... so we headed somewhere else. But as I got closer to where that dumb lady sat I stopped in front of her, she had been watching me hobble slowly the whole time and I said uh ma'aam you didn't need to be rude to me, I may be young but I'm in pain and you certainly have no idea what I'm going through, just because you're old doesn't give you the right to be an @$$ to other people! And I continued walking away. I turned around midway and saw my momma giving the lady a peice of her mind and inside I was like go momma! I don't know what my mom was saying but I could tell from the ladys face that it wasn't very nice. Lol! We found some seats next to a nice couple a few ways away and watched the show. After my sons school performed I decided I had enough of sitting in a awkward position because the pain was getting too intense to handle so we left. We tried to go down the same way we came up but were met with two grouchy security guards who basically said that they couldn't let me go down that way because if they let me they would have to let everyone else. My momma who is small in stature got all up in this dudes face and was like uh hello my daughter is in excruciating pain and she can't walk up those stairs....you want her to hurt herself more and go a longer route cuz you wanna be mean? The guy was mouthing off to my mom telling her that there's an elevator and that he didn't care if I was in pain but he still wasn't gonna let us through. I didn't feel like fighting so I told my momma to leave it alone and that I could do it. It was a longer way and it probably took me a heck of a lot longer getting back to the car because we were now going downhill and my balance was shakey but I made it and by the time we got back to the car I felt like I was gonna pass out! We made it all the way home and I'm finally laying down but I'm sooooooo emotional! I'm upset that I can't do the things I used to do so easily and now I have to depend on my husband just to help me walk! I'm so mad at how people can be so heartless and ignorant. This rsd crap has moved into my left leg from my left arm and I don't feel like a person anymore! I'm so tired and in pain I can't stand it! My left leg is completely numb and ice-cold and I can't even get comfortable! My poor right side not only has to compensate for my crappy left arm, it now has to compensate for my crappy left leg! I'm so frustrated ight now!